In my faith filled walk, I’ve always got one thing constantly on my thoughts. I don’t want anyone to ever look at me and say “Look at her, she thinks she is better than me.” That statement couldn’t be any farther from the truth, because if you follow my blog you’ve read that my struggle is not ever feeling “good” enough. I had one instance that these words were actually spoken screamed to me. I can not begin to tell you the hurt it brought, along with confusion.  I was confused because I know that every morning I wake up, it was because of His grace. See I have come to terms with the fact that I am a sinner. I can understand that I do not deserve to wake up every morning, but I understand the reason I do is because I have the love of our Heavenly Father. Just as you do too. Looking back now I am glad I heard those words, because it gave me an opportunity to reflect.

I could have gotten angry (in truth- I did for a short time). I could have stayed angry. I could have yelled back. I could have done many things in which not to reflect Christ. What I chose to do instead was take time to understand why that person felt that way. In not talking to said person I came to a conclusion. It was because said person didn’t understand me. People do not know your story just by walking beside each-other. It takes communication for people to understand. It takes breaking down strong-holds. It takes “uncomfortable yes’s”. It involves work.

I haven’t gotten the opportunity to speak with said person again (some my fault, some circumstances).  See if I had gotten the opportunity to say how I felt, said person would get to see that I actually look up to them. They would understand that somewhere in the mix of things something got crossed and if we could figure out where that was we could get passed it.

*While writing this, I see something. opport-unity…  It’s in the word itself. Definition: a set of circumstances that makes it possible to do something. A set of circumstances to make UNITY happen.

Prayer: 

I know your desires to have us speak life into each-others lives. I need help forgiving. I need help showing I forgive. In Jesus name. -Amen