Have you ever looked at a famous person and wondered how they got so lucky to be where they are and who they are? What about to personalize this question even more, what about a friend or a family member? Have you found yourself thinking thoughts like, wow, I should have been the one that ____________________ (got the promotion, gotten a hand out, ext.). I personally struggled with this previously in life. I never understood why everyone around me was becoming what they desired to be and some even more than they could have imagined to be. I always placed myself in the category of “oh well, I just don’t know the right people” or “oh well, I am meant for failure.” For me, it wasn’t until I fully devoted my life to Christ that I was able to see reality. I am hoping by me writing this, you might be able to come along faster than I was able to.

So what did me being devoted to Christ mean and why was it the turning point of me not seeing myself as a failure? After a long process of me being stubborn and ignoring God’s love surrounding me and basically CHASING me, I caved. It took me loosing sight of everything I thought was right and true (because I planned it that way in my head) to finally give my life to Christ. Now, when I say it that way, some of you may get scared of the way that sounds. Truthfully though, it was the absolute BEST decision I EVER made. For me; this is what that looked like. I ran (literally) down the road and God’s loving hand was there to pick me up. I cried to Him and said, I can NOT do this anymore! I don’t want to, I can’t run from you and I am tired of trying. At the time I thought He was rudely deleting things in my life, but reality was He desired what I truly desired in my heart. and my current situation at the time was un-healthy and toxic. Truth is He loved me enough not to allow my control issue to bring me down so far that there was no hope in the end. With everything He had already done in my life previous to this moment, I decided that I would show Him I was grateful by changing things I was doing. I removed negativity from my life (as much as you can in this chaotic world), I cleaned my dirty trash talking mouth, and I began seeking God by slowly reading His word and mostly listening to online Pastors, such as Pastor Craig and Pastor Steven. At this point I didn’t even feel clean enough to step foot in a church and I could watch online without feeling like the Church would topple down because of my presence. **Just so you know, that is a LIE from satan and if you feel that way I urge you to push that thought to the side and get into a local church!** Anyway, long story short, I began a process with God. I sought Him and He became more and more and more REAL in my life! I found this exact thing in scripture during my long battle of teaching myself the importance of reading God’s word. So let God work his will in you. Yell a loud no to the Devil and watch him scamper. Say a quiet yes to God and he’ll be there in no time. Quit dabbling in sin. Purify your inner life. Quit playing the field. Hit bottom, and cry your eyes out. The fun and games are over. Get serious, really serious. Get down on your knees before the Master; it’s the only way you’ll get on your feet.’ James 4:7-10

That scripture alone was what I needed to know it was a matter of putting work in on how far I got. It also made me realize that the people I almost envied had actually been doing this same thing for YEARS before I actually even knew some of them. The moral to this story is, don’t allow someone else’s set UP to be your set BACK. Instead decide to do something about your life and take authority over your situation. I had to literally train myself to read the bible! I had to discipline myself and I messed up (and still do) on reading it daily, but what’s important is, I don’t allow it to stop me, and you shouldn’t either. If it’s schooling you desire… try try again, if it’s a promotion you desire…. try try again, if it’s a relationship with God you desire…. try try again!! Then train yourself to become consistent. Be willing to put some long hard hours into your dream and I would have to say failure would no longer be an option for you. If you are a follower of Christ, failure isn’t even an option to begin with, He’s already won the victory! Ask God what am I not doing that you would like me to do….. every walk is different but we are seeking after the same things and we are to be like minded (that’s unity). It’s beautiful because God individualizes our walks with Him to show us even more so how much He loves us. When you question… why did “they” get it and not me… ask yourself, are you really doing everything you can be doing behind the scenes when no one is looking and it’s only you and God.

PRAYER: 

God, I am so thankful for your individualized love. You love us individually but all equally! I ask that whoever is reading this gets strength and revelation! I ask that you continue to show up and show out in their lives and I ask that they also begin a process of wanting to know for themselves who you are and who you created them to be! If they are sleeping in their faith, I ask that you waken their spirit and guide them every step of the way. In Jesus name. Amen.