There are events in our lives that make it feel as though we are having to start over. This could be anything from a fitness journey, a failed marriage, a new job, taking a course again, or even just picking up an old hobby again. Honestly, the list could go on for days.

For instance, that first paragraph was written over 2 years ago, and here I am today…. Starting over. I do not even remember writing it 🤷‍♀️. However, I do remember the pain I was feeling at that time. It makes sense to me that I didn’t have the ability to finish it. Sometimes, walking away is necessary. If the thing you walked away from is part of your story, you WILL return back to it.

This 2 year break had to happen. This blog is a very vulnerable place for me to use my story to help others. When I wrote the first paragraph, I was the one needing help. One thing I take very seriously is the role of encouraging others. Never in my life do I want to use any platform to spill my wounds over to other people. So I chose to take time away to heal. I had no idea how long I would need or if I would ever pick this back up again. But here I am.

For this to make more sense I will let you know the reason I was so broken. Unfortunately, my marriage ended due to a divorce. This is not something I hoped for, wished for, or prayed for. It’s actually the opposite of everything I desired when I said “I-do”. Raising children in a happy home environment with parents that loved each-other was in fact a dream that I didn’t think could be real. Growing up, my household environment was toxic. I didn’t know that as a little girl, because my Dad always made me feel protected, comforted, loved, and provided for. However, my mother struggled with a pretty severe case of undiagnosed mental illness. So, as a little girl, a fairy tale family felt like a future goal of mine! I wanted to give my children something I wasn’t able to experience.

However, life has a way of lifeing the way it wants to. The reason unexpected things happen on Earth is because we all are given the option of free will. Which means, as muuuuuch as we would love to make someone choose something… we cant. Because trust me, I tried to control the situation as much as I could but eventually, I had to lift my hands up in surrender and accept the facts surrounding me. Maybe I will share more on that later.

For now, I wanted to reintroduce myself, and explain why I’ve not made a post in so long. I’ve put in a lot of personal work on my 2 year healing journey. I’m sure you can imagine there have also been many ups and many downs as well.

As my first paragraph stated, it’s never too late to start again. Maybe you are finding yourself in a season of having to walk away, resting/healing, or deciding to pick “it” back up again. Whatever path you are currently on, I encourage you to dive deep into the here and now. Find purpose in the pain. Take the opportunity to become the best version of you that you can be for your right now season. Remember, that can also look and feel like being a complete wreck with emotions being all over the place. And that is okay. As hard as it may be, I also want you to try and embrace the unknown. You may not be able to see it yet, but if you continually take one step at a time, you will be amazed at what has occurred in just a year’s time! For those of us that choose to walk with the Lord daily, please lean on Romans 8:28 for encouragement in knowing that if it isn’t good, God is not done writing the story. Do you remember the story “Going on a bear hunt”?Sometimes, there is no way around the obstacles… and you have to go through it. This can look different for everyone. Some people are really good at walking through mud alone, while others need assistance. Some people know how to use a compass to get their self out of the woods, and others need a guide. Never be afraid to ask for help and when life becomes overwhelming lean on your circle of people that love you unconditionally!

As hard as I remember the middle of the ick feeling, I am able to say, you’ve got this. You are stronger, wiser, and more capable than you think you are! Find that giant that is hiding within yourself and let it rise from these ashes. I love you, and I am here with you!

Sleeping Giant Rising Again 😉